such a long time has passed since i last posted on my blog. so many things have happened.I am not sure if i am the same person or a changed one.Time has moved and i am stuck or have i moved too??These past months i have been thinking & thinking a lot.Where have i gone wrong?i need to fix things which have been broken by people or myself badly.But for now i have to move out of home.to some place where i can breathe & think about how to move & fix all the pieces that has fallen apart. will it be or wont?? i am not loosing hope......

change is the word but had no idea it wud be so drastic.A day which meant the world to me has lost its meaning today.For how long this phase will continue to rule me??I need a change but a happy one..please god or my guardian angels if i have any..(i doubt this)..change the course my life is moving towards for i never thought this to be the end result...i wanted small but different ending to this one thing which ruled me.. :(

Enlightened...

Even though life has no happiness to offer me rite now...there is light all around me. ;) New year started with doing up my new home. The home is not so big but i still love it as it gives me the feeling of owning my own space..my corner which i can make look like the way i want. For now i am simply loving the fancy lights which make my room glitter at night.

I just sit for long staring at them thinking of all the not so happy things which happened to me recently & try to think of some happy things which i know will eventually come to me. fingers crossed ;).. For now all i am concentrating is on making my little home look prettier & prettier (more pics in detail will come later) & looking for a new job... and yup some happiness..God bless me :)

happy new year...

Spent the last day of 2009 preparing things for the new home...spending time wd the niece & sissy & dad...welcomed the new year watching television wd dad...msgng frnds,in btween receivng phone calls..Amidst all missing someone who is so far yet so close to me..
31st night is not the same widout u..love u & miss u..hoping for a happy 2010..
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL ;)

Clueless...lost

life it seems is strange...nothing is right rite now...life has taken a turn which has turned my world upside down...dnt knw wat to do?? wonder for how long i will b able to carry it off??????

Happy Times Ahead ???

So finally after years of staying out m moving in to stay wid family.......Also after 9 yrs of living in saket m shifting to a new home to stay wd dad & which is closer to where my sis stays. I know a lot of happy family bonding will take place along with a lot of arguements...But suddenly life is moving fast. Boyfee is in talks wd his family so that we can marry asap. :) (fingers crossed)
Right now i am sitting in a heap of mess as m packing all my stuff to shift home this sunday..In all m hoping this move will bring some positive changes in my life & to all others involved.Things which are stuck for long wll start moving fast & will bring tons of happy surprises..M all positive..
Please God take care this time :)

Why???

sometimes every door seems to be closed..

talking becomes impossible..

u loose your temper with every said word...

confusion takes over your mind...

things become too hard to handle...

life comes to a standstill....

u feel nothing is going to get better....

all your prayers seems to be unanswered??? Why??